Gun Powder

When I try to sleep
I wish I rather weep.
Wash away with tears,
My sorrows and fears.

Once the heart of Gold
is now so cold.
What glowed like fire.
smells like burnt tire.

With the passing tide
Am I more dead inside?
Is this it?
No, Somewhere in the ashes
Something is lit.

Only the fuse has burnt...
and left is the Gun Powder.

Why I sleep late?

My usual routines includes sleeping late. Recently, Apart from some reasons which I knew, I found one more cause which would have made me sleep late although subconsciously. The reason is that when I lay on my bed and try to sleep. I leave my mind to relax and that's when it starts wandering in the overcrowded empty space.

It feels like there is some hollow space filled with a lot of dreams and aspirations. Every night either I revisit one of that old aspiration or I create a new one. While lying in the bed just before sleep I think of doing things which I want to do; of things which I have to do; of things that I can't do; and of things that I couldn't do.

Sometimes I plan really big things, sometimes small. But there are mere few which I have brought into action. When I think about the reasons for it I find probably its because I am more of a thinker than a doer. And maybe because as once said by one of my close friend that "My entropy is high". I usually cant stand with one thing for too long (it feels like I am wasting my time and proceeding in the wrong direction so I chose another and finally dissatisfaction). Another reason maybe is I want to do a lot of things and all I have is such a small life with even less time for myself and even lesser time to work on one of them with full devotion and then I shall not forget to mention the wide range of moods that I have. So a match of a mood to a todo action is even lesser. For example right now I am in an introspective mood with a touch of distressing thoughts.

I don't do much physical work in my daily routine and therefore getting tired is unusual. All that feel tired in my body are my eyes and my hands after clicking the mouse and hitting the keyboard all day long. So falling to bed and sleeping in an instant is a privilege which I don't have. So to avoid long session of distressing thoughts and rolling restlessly on the bed and then thinking of writing a blog about it and finally getting frustrated over the whole stupid thing. I sleep late by keeping myself engaged in hitting the keyboard and clicking the mouse.

Don't know how long this is going to last. I think there are many others wondering the same for themselves.

Happy Diwali

Well my diwali was not as bad as i expected. Although I was alone most part of the day. As i mentioned earlier couldn't go home and all friends went apart from a few, and to add up to it those here had offices today. Well its bad for them but for me too.

So alone... but it helped me. Sitting in my room away from everything made me introspect, retrospect and many other spects ;) It was then that i thought about things which we never think about. The significance of friends and family, significance of festivals. What are festivals? What is their purpose? Do the origins of these festivals really matter today? What makes as happy during this periods? Why is it time to celebrate? Why its not fun celebrating alone? and so on...

Thought a lot... But who cares about that?
You would be probably bored reading this already. Its fresh in my mind but i too will soon forget. But what will remain will be the conclusions and the learnings from them.

Anyways Enough gibberish for today
Just Enjoy the festival

After all this Diwali and the thought process brought me memories, Sweet and Lovely memories. They were enough to make me happy this time.

Happy Diwali

Interesting Conversation

Conversation between Friends:


fr1---hello
fr2---hi

fr1---hey h r u???
fr2---m fine!!! Wht abt u???

fr1---m fine too
fr2---cool

fr1---so howz life???
fr2--gud

fr1--hmmmm

fr1--aur batao? ( passing the ball to the other side)
fr2--hmmm everything as usual

fr2--so wht else???
fr1--nothing much

fr2--ok
fr2--aur batao? ( passing the ball to the other side)

And it goes on like this untill they give up

Are u also having such conversation with ur frnds, then u r
also
suffering from "aur batao syndrome" It means ur life is all screwed up
following the usual monotonous routine.

Probably u need a change in ur life something which is
exciting,something which is adventurous, something which really makes u
feel gud

Correct????

yeh sab to thik hai ab

AUR BATAO


...source internet...

Sigmund Freud's Priorities

Another interesting one...

Five things are happening in your house at the same time. In which
sequence would you solve them?

1. The telephone is ringing!
2. The baby is crying!
3. Someone's knocking or calling you from the front door!
4. You hung the clothes out to dry and it is beginning to rain!
5. You left the tap on in the kitchen and the water is overflowing!

In which sequence would you solve these problems? Write the sequence
and check below how your decisions were made.

BUT BE HONEST, THE FINDINGS ARE EXCITING.

First write YOUR sequence from 1 to 5 then scroll below and read
after!

















Answer:

Every individual point represents something in your life.
On the list you can see which meaning every point has:

1. Telephone represents Work
2. Baby represents Family
3. Door represents Friends
4. Clothes represent Money
5. Tap represents Sex

Your chosen sequence determines the priorities in your life.


Now....did you turn off the tap first ?